All In A Momment

Can u remember the last time something changed ur state of mind in an instant? It may have been a kiss, a love one missed, or a break with a twix. I just had one of those momments in the studio. I have a brutha who grew up banging and ran w a few bruthas who were RUTHLESS, consequently he can sometimes resemble. But there are times where in a momment there is a rarer softer side that comes thru, when he's connecting w his love. So he's reminding the musicians that they've got some work to do on their craft and steps behind the keys. Let me explain. Some people call her by her full name, the piano. Some call her the keyboard. But this brutha knows her nickname, and has developed a sort of symbiotic relationship w her. They've learned to cope with life together and make the most of it. So what prompted his stepping behind her you may ask? The lil brutha wasn't treating her right. This is a momment where a big brutha takes some time to teach the younger brutha a lil more about his girl. So he walks behind his partner and reminds me how much they've done together since they met. All this communicated with a confident eyebrow raise. Just then in the midst of all the music and conversation in the room something happens. I feel goosebumps on my arms and I hear her sing. Really sing. All conversations stop all other musicians dare not interrupt her. She's begins encouraging me, letting me know "its gunna be a brighter day". Reminding me that I have much to be thankful for! The hustle and bustle of a busy day n the frustration of tight finances are all washed away by the soothing serenade of her voice...[title]

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For the Hell of it

I looked him in his eyes and asked him why. He looked confused. I repeated my words with an intense glare that sent chills into his spine and mine. He had no response. I began to remind him of how good he has it, w work going so well, and a woman who has held him down longer than I can actually calculate, but his stare remained aimless and his response refused to change. Speechless. U would jeopardize ur living situation, for this. This won't last long, before u know it this breath of fresh air will be the very thing coroding ur lungs and exhausting ur life. His response, the same stare. I tried to explain to him that every momment was fleeting and that only what was meaningful would last, he seemed unfased. As if he had entered a new perception or reality (synonymous) that did not allow him to c what I saw. While he is smelling the roses, I'm plugging my nose to avoid the stink of "boo-boo". He's enamoured by the familiar newness of the situation, the excitement of the catchless chase. I got furious. Inside I just couldn't understand, why? My brain began to punch the overtime clock to compute the complexities of the situation. It's wrong, can't he see its not beneficial for him. It will nt get him anywhere. He seems so aimless messing with this foolishness. Good, bad, right, wrong, left, black, white, and the shades between all flash thru my mind pleading the case as judge and jury deliberating the verdict... then he speaks. He lifts his eyes the way Aubrey Graham does when he's "Over" a conversation. Something has sparked inside. His first words remind me that djs refuse to stop playing drake's year old single "I'm doin me... I'm livin life right now maing...". (im perplexed, how does u doing u have anything to do with the questions dancing on the table) he continues, "I'm flying the plane" (who said anything about ur aviator shades)... "its my life.... now or never... I'm not gunna live forever" (not with that attitude ur not)... then, just then he stops. The face on his face changes. It seems as if the color in his face returns. A childlike innocence returns. He's no longer husain bolting around the bush. His gaze into my eyes is like a gaze into his own. He has found solace, refuge. He is no longer explaining but simply telling..."he came to himself"(luke 15:17) and humbly stated "I guess really, its just... [title]"

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Shalom

"when I wake up, before I put a beater on... I thank Him for love, joy, peace, or u could say Shalom." Well put Lecrae. How often do u take a look back at your personal victories? I know I for one am "on to the next, on on to the next one", the next challenge that is. I am so focused on growth and moving forward, but today is different. Last night we produced a major community event, lots of families were touched. I guess I could the consider the event a personal victory. Before the event was over I was emailing a colleague about "the next one". LOL, "this is how we do..." But today after my morning rituals, I fell back asleep and when I woke up the lyrics to lecrae's single "Shalom" were in my head. Shalom is a state of being at rest and at ease. It's actually Hebrew word that captures the essence of peace and wholeness. After diddy bopping in my bed to the sound of the song in my head (that rhymes lookout Lupe, I'm coming for ya lol) "I reminisce, I reminisce(d)" about ALL the times in my life when I wasn't at rest and peace. The times when I woke up worried if my family would find out what I did last night, worrying if the people I had hurt would make it their business to hurt me and my family, worrying if my life was in jeopardy because of foolish choices, worrying about my bills being paid, worrying about if my vehicle would start or not, worrying if my romance interest actually was feeling me too, worrying about the paper that was due in my 2 o'clock class, worrying if I was gunna see the dude I despised on campus, worrying if I would get an ugly gut feeling when I looked in the mirror, worrying about my appearance and how my physique was coming along, worrying about my younger siblings and if they would be alright.... WORRYING WORRYING WORRYING (i sure hope that's I word cuz I wore that bad boy OUT lol). But today, there is Shalom. There is peace, joy, love, wholeness, soundness of mind, confidence, happiness, romance (love u boo), excitement (lets go GIANTS)... a whole host of pleasant emotions. I can't help but think of "the reason for (this) season... "You will keep in perfect peace (those of us) who keep our mind stayed on You and trust in You." (Isaiah 26:3). I'm so thankful! "I woke up and before I put a beater on, I thanked the Lord for love, joy, peace or u could say"...[TITLE]

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